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June 22nd, 2011
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Seasonal nostalgia
Transcribed from last night's voice notes:

I'm usually not very good about holidays. But today, to celebrate the Solstice, I walked uphill to watch the sunset -- alone with the spirits and birds.

It was an unbearably melancholy way to celebrate the longest day of the year, full of light and life. But it's also fitting. For me, Solstice is a melancholy time. I think this is because I have an uneasy relationship with spring. Spring is a time of life, creation; I like creation, yet I prefer summer's solitude.

As a capstone to spring, Solstice is a beautiful holiday. As the start of summer, it's depressing. As much as I love summer, the longest day of the year is at the start of the season. Everything I like about it starts as great as it's ever going to get, and only slides downhill from there. This gives summer a sense of innate urgency that no other season really has.

It is perhaps not coincidence that, on the Pacific Crest Trail, Solstice marks the metaphorical and literal high point of the trip. In an average year, that's when hikers reach the High Sierra -- the highest point on the trail, the most gorgeous terrain, and the greatest challenges (including Mount Whitney, the tallest mountain in the continental U.S., which is just a short detour away). By the time you finish the High Sierra, you've conquered both extremes -- the desert and the mountains. In a sense, everything after that is merely mileage toward the border.

My hike fell apart not long after Solstice ... which was particularly cruel, because I survived the 700 miles of hot, grueling trail that cause 90% of thru-hiker dropouts. (It was my intention to keep going to the end. Injury and finances put an end to that.) In hindsight, I wonder how much of this Solstice's melancholy is a response to that unfinished goal.

Half an hour after sunset, the dusk is calm and vibrant. I am outside in short sleeves, admiring the sky, listening to the crickets. I think nights are my favorite part of summer. I like nights in general, but I can't connect with them when I am wearing 16 layers of clothing and trying not to focus on how miserable the cold is making me.

A summertime hike under the full moon is about the most awesome hike there is. And lying down and staring at the stars on a warm summer night is the most beautiful connection you will ever make, to anything, ever.

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From:dancinglights
Date:June 22nd, 2011 09:00 pm (UTC)
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And lying down and staring at the stars on a warm summer night is the most beautiful connection you will ever make, to anything, ever.

yes. so much that.

One of these days we really do need to get you out to the mid-June gather out at four quarters farm. This is a related statement in that one of my personal traditions for the event is to spend several hours one night lying in a high meadow field, staring at the stars we can't see at the city-filled coast, and giggling at the beauty of the universe. It has been known to keep me going for the rest of the year.
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From:baxil
Date:June 23rd, 2011 07:28 pm (UTC)
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I would love that!

It is my fond hope that, before too much more of my life passes by, Kady and I can be in a financial position to do more traveling. Crossing coasts for a gather is pretty unthinkable right now, no matter how awesome it sounds. :(

Speaking of -- I still need to register for Mythicalia, don't I? I'm perenially horrible about that.
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From:dancinglights
Date:June 28th, 2011 04:15 pm (UTC)
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(dunno how your lj inbox is set up for forwarding, but you has a message.)
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From:siege
Date:June 23rd, 2011 02:17 pm (UTC)
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This post makes me want to walk with you in wilderness.
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From:baxil
Date:June 23rd, 2011 07:55 pm (UTC)
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Should circumstances ever place us together, I would be thrilled to take you up on that. :)

Until then, this is as close as I can get.
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