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March 19th, 2006
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Closure
I'm sitting here at home at 3:30 a.m., freshly returned from my official Last Day of Work. It's a little later than I expected to be home, but packout takes quite an effort in these days of ubiquitous computer use. Aside from the usual desk cleaning (I found two 34-cent stamps in the junk drawer), you have to clear Explorer caches, save IM logs, shift personal work files to the server, shift personal personal files to an external drive, clear Winamp's playlist down to the single song "Goodbye" by Nina Simone, that sort of thing.

It still hasn't sunk in yet. In the slightest. It may take a week or two.

That the end of my time at the Journal is passing with such a whimper indicates, I think, just how much I had settled into the daily routine of working there. It doesn't really feel like I'm done yet; despite all the cleaning, I have this odd sort of inner feeling like I'm still going to walk in on Tuesday after a weekend of goofing off. Except, in this case, if I do end up going back, it's going to be a Tuesday in October, and a hell of an exciting "weekend."

It's been a long while since my life was so stable over such an extended period. Probably not since college.

And after some thought, I've decided that that's just another reason why what I'm doing this year is the right thing. I was starting to really carve out some ruts there -- not bad life habits, just ... not completely the way that I wanted to go. It was a comfortable routine, and there are a lot of things to miss about it, but without leaving I wouldn't have been able to change direction as drastically as I'm doing now. No matter what happens out on the trail, I'm the better for pushing myself to test my limits, take a chance, and step out for new territory.

Life is like a snowglobe -- it's at its most interesting when you shake it up once in a while.

Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: T-minus six weeks
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From:sebboi
Date:March 19th, 2006 12:26 pm (UTC)
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Life is like an analogy. There is more to it than can really be summed up in one sentence, or even two.

Good luck, sir.
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From:thrames
Date:March 19th, 2006 06:20 pm (UTC)
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Godspeed. Try to avoid being eaten by bears, cougars, and other assorted beasties.
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From:elynne
Date:March 19th, 2006 06:52 pm (UTC)
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Woohoo! :) So you've still got a couple of weeks before you drop out of contact entirely, eh? Let us know when you're going off-grid, and yay! :) *hughughug*
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From:baxil
Date:March 19th, 2006 08:06 pm (UTC)
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Thanks! Off-grid day is slightly before the kickoff party for thru-hikers begins on April 28. kadyg will be driving me down to San Diego that week and we'll have a mini-vacation before both walking the first 20 miles of trail to the party.

Also, hiking icons!
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From:elynne
Date:March 19th, 2006 08:41 pm (UTC)
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Hiking icons... are you planning on blogging from the trail? ;) ... actually, come to think of it, with a PDA and some kind of posting script, it's not only not absurd, but not a bad idea. I'd sign up to read ongoing "field notes". San Diego... border to border. Wow. I would say "Let me know when you're in my area," but I imagine that you won't be swinging through Seattle per se, and that where you will be hiking is a bit away from where I can get to with a car. ;)
From:raki
Date:March 20th, 2006 01:07 am (UTC)
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Maybe you need to mark the change with some kind of ceremony/rite/ritual thing?
From:(Anonymous)
Date:March 21st, 2006 09:33 am (UTC)

Greetings

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Dear Tad,
Wishing you well. Love the snowglobe image! That's a keeper. I will check in at least weekly, probably more often. God keep you safe and sit on your shoulder to guide you along your adventure.
Best wishes, Georgie AAARF
From:(Anonymous)
Date:March 29th, 2006 01:45 am (UTC)

Nice to meetcha

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Hey there Tad/Baxil,
Nice journal this.
Glad to have been able to make a teeny contribution to your new adventure.
Hope Kady's headache was short-lived.
Back here on the Ridge with snow, rain and hail. Ahhhh spring.
Best of luck to you on your PCT journey.
Jealous...so I'll follow the posts you make here to see how it goes.
Cheers,
Catherine
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