A thought for the hurting
As for feeling like a 'failure': You don't have to justify yourself, not
to me, not to yourself, not to anyone. The mere fact you're here gives you
a right to keep being here, no matter how badly you might screw it up.
You're allowed to kill yourself, but you're not obligated to do so by failing. The world is full of killers and thieves and blind rabid ideologues and mindless consumer drones -- and if they can get a free pass to keep breathing, so can you.